Dear Loh Dau (dad),
I keep asking the question why God has to take you away so early, why you were not able to retire and enjoy life after all the years you slogged in order to provide for us, why you are not able to see at least your first grandchild, why you were not able to guide me in running the business…..and the worse thing is why God had to allow the suffering that you had to endure from; i.e. the most dreaded disease, CANCER.
It really aches my heart even as I write this to have seen you suffer so much, how much pain you went through, as if the pain and suffering from your younger days were not enough.
When you kept telling us about the past we always said you were such a bore, like no new stories but now I realised that you were trying to tell us to appreciate what we have. That is why I get very mad when Kieran is fussy with food, I remember that you were strict with us especially on the dinner table, you wouldn’t even allow us to talk! But now our kids are so spoilt and most of the time throwing tantrums, I wonder how you would react…
The time I miss you most is when I get into a fix over the business, when I have no one to turn to for help and when there’s something wrong with the house…or when I can’t handle mom anymore..you were always there to fix things up..why can’t my brothers learn that from you??? Sigh..
I really miss you so much dad…..and I’m sorry I am not able to visit your grave today but I know you will understand. I know and am assured that you are having a good time now and definitely not suffering anymore.
Take care dad and till we meet again…
From your daughter, Ah Girl….